Nathan cannot see the big picture. I think he is just barely beginning to understand that there might be a reality that goes beyond what he can see right in front of his eyes. For Nathan everything is about what he wants right at that moment, and he doesn’t do a very good job of waiting or of doing things to get ready for what he wants.
For instance: Nathan is addicted to “outside” he loves just being out in the air and running in the back yard. Of course these days it is cold so before we go out there is a whole ritual of coat and hat and gloves that must happen first. Nathan has sort of learned that shoes mean outside so he will grudging let you put his shoes on, but everything else to him is just a hindrance to his goal. And today when I told him to come and let me change his diaper and that we weren’t going to go outside until I did he just couldn’t put those two together. He just stood at the door saying “owside, owside, owside” while I stood at his room telling him to come and let me change his diaper. He couldn’t grasp that there was something else that had to happen before he could have what he wanted. (eventually he got punished for not listening to his daddy and then after a very sweet “sorry daddy” and a diaper change we went outside”
But I told you all that to tell you this. Nathan loves the park, adores it actually. The swings are the high points of his life. Well the other day we were going to the park and Nathan runs out the door and heads for the back yard. I tried to tell him that we weren’t playing in the yard we were going to the park. Well he didn’t want to listen. When I picked him up and put him in the car he was crying because he didn’t want to leave the backyard. Even though we were going where he would enjoy more he couldn’t see past his momentary wants to understand that I had even bigger plans for him.
Now isn’t that the way it is with us and God sometimes. We don’t choose to follow him because we can’t see past our momentary life to understand that God has something bigger planned. It is a hard thing to trust God to lead you places that you have never been before, but if you do, if you can trust that God sees a bigger picture than you do then you will find joy that you have never known.
In the end it comes down to trust. Do you trust that God knows more than you, do you trust that God loves you and wants what is best for you, and do you trust that he is strong enough to sustain you no matter where you go. If you aren’t following Him then it is probably a good indication that you have a problem with trust. It is time to let go and trust Him with the Big Picture. He can see it better than you can anyway.