Over the years we have had many discussions about dealing with doubts and even more serious issues about faith and God. As such I thought I would mention the tweet made by Steve Johnson of the Buffalo Bills after he dropped what would have been the game winning pass in the end zone on Sunday. You can check out a longer article about it here, but the tweet looked like this…
I PRAISE YOU 24/7!!!!!! AND THIS HOW YOU DO ME!!!!! YOU EXPECT ME TO LEARN FROM THIS??? HOW???!!! ILL NEVER FORGET THIS!! EVER!!! THX THO…
I know that there will be many people with many different opinions about this tweet. But as for me I can’t help but feel a certain connection to this 24 year-old grad from UK. Is there anyone who works in churches who hasn’t had a moment when they felt like this? I know that I have. There have been rough times and hard times and just out and out wrong times when I have cried out to God with a long list of the things that I have done for Him and demanded to know why all of that stuff shouldn’t add up to something more.
Of course when you take those thoughts and you put them on twitter that makes things slightly different, but that is the world of Johnson’s generation. You tweet what you feel, and this poor guy was feeling pretty abandoned. I know how that feels I have been there.
Of course after a few days, sometimes even a few minutes I am reminded of how great God really is, and how messed up I really am. I am reminded of all of the good things that He has done for me that I never deserved and how blessed I really am. I remember that He loved me before I ever even knew His name and He continues to love me even when I curse that same name. I remember that He choses me even when I choose to run away from Him. I remember and then I feel amazed at how blessed I really am.
I would imagine that Johnson will feel the same too after a time.