There is this guy in my church who I have been helping out with eye drops because he had cataract surgery on both eyes this month. I think he knew that his eyes were bad, but I don’t think he realized how bad until after the surgery. Now this man who has worn glasses most of his life and who has been nearly blind for at least a year has 20/35 vision without glasses. What cracks me up is how you will see it sort of catch him off guard from time to time. He will suddenly just stop talking and read a clock across a room or will stand far away from me and ask me to hold up fingers so he can tell me how many I am holding up. He is absolutely giddy at how much he can see.
It makes me think of the first day that I got contacts. I had worn glasses before, but not that often, and I was pretty sure that I was functioning normally without them. I bought my contacts from a store in the mall and that first day after I had wrestled with them to get them in my eye I turned around to look out at the people. I was amazed. Things were crisp and clear, and even though my eyes were streaming with tears it seemed like I was seeing the world for the first time.
I had no idea how blind I had been.
I think that same thing happens to us in our spiritual life as well. We go through for a time unaware that there is a problem and then something happens–we get caught in something we shouldn’t do; we get closer to poverty than we have ever been before; we get sick; we find out something about someone that we never knew–and suddenly our eyes are opened and we can see things that we have never seen before.
The thing is you can never explain to someone who is blind what it is like to see. You can tell them what you see. You can explain to them that things can be in focus, but you can’t really explain what it is like. You have see it to know it. The same is true with God. We can tell people about what it is like living with Jesus in our life, but until they trust him and let him heal them they will never know.
I once was blind, but now I see. Thank you, Jesus, for letting me see; help me find the places where I am still blind and give me sight to see those places as well.