Nathan is in the weird whiny stage. Actually it goes beyond whining. If he doesn’t get what he wants when he want it he actually tears up and cries. I am so stubborn than when he does that I just want to refuse to give him what he wants even if it was something I was about to give him because I don’t want to reinforce his bad behavior.
But I have learned something from him lately…
When Nathan wants something he has a hard time trusting that I am working on getting it to him. He wants it RIGHT NOW and will cry to assure that it happens. One of the big times this happens is when we are getting ready to go outside. Nathan will stand at the door and reach for the doorknob and sort of generally let me know that he wants to go out and play. I like being outside so I will often agree that we can go out.
But here is the thing, before he can go out he needs shoes and sunscreen. So I must go and pick him up and sit down with him to put on his shoes and sun block. This makes him very angry. What I keep trying to say to him is “WE ARE GOING OUTSIDE. JUST TRUST ME. YOU ARE GOING TO GET WHAT YOU WANT; WE JUST HAVE TO GET READY FIRST.” He never believes me though no matter how much I try to explain.
I have started to think about how often I am that way with God. There are many times when it feels like God is actually pulling me away from the door instead of opening it for me to go out. In those times I tend to cry just like Nathan. More times than I like to admit I refuse to trust in Him and believe that He is going to take me the way I want to go. I wonder how often God has been preparing me for something and I have pitched a fit because I didn’t like the wait. I wonder if he ever feels like me and wants to just say “TRUST ME!” in my ear so that I will stop and let him get me ready for what is to come.
Everyday I see my relationship with God through my relationship with my son. Every day I grow even more amazed that God continues to pour His love out on me.