Life Stress

I like to be a leader, actually I love to be a leader, but sometimes I just want to follow someone with vision. Being the person who is always pushing forward gets old after a while. I want to follow someone for a while. But the problem is that I am such a control freak and such a “I think I can do it better” type person that I need to follow someone who can lead with confidence and conviction. Apparently those people are impossible to find.

I guess I am going to have to just grow up and realize that I am more than just a youth pastor. I guess I am going to have to accept the fact that if I want to move forward then I had better start moving forward.

The problem is that I am in charge of so many different small things and I want to move forward on all of them. But I have so little time in my day. I know that I should learn to delegate and pass things off to other people, but getting that started takes more effort than I am giving now. I know it would make my life better next month, but it would kill me this month.

When you add to all of that this deep desire to spend every moment with Nathan and Meredith and I end up pretty stressed right now.

The funny thing is that none of my stress is coming from the youth side of things. If my only responsibility was youth minister then I would be feeling good. But I can’t ever seem to do what I want to do as a youth minister because every time I try one of the myriad of other things steps in and gets in the way. 

I think I just need a vacation, but the type of vacation I want isn’t one where I go to the beach or get involved in more activities. I need a vacation from work for a while so that I can actually get some work done. I know that doesn’t make much sense, but it sure sounds like a vacation to me.  

3 thoughts on “Life Stress

  • June 20, 2007 at 11:25 PM

    I hear ya. I do so much "other" stuff right now that I’m afraid someone is going to notice me NOT doing youth ministry. Very frustrating. The "other" stuff is all good stuff, needed stuff, but it is still "stuff" taking up ministry time. Hard to know what to do but pray and do the best you can. So, I hear ya.

  • June 21, 2007 at 12:43 AM

    On behalf of all church media directors everywhere… We feel your pain. :)

    A wise man once said, "the less you do, the more you accomplish."

    I would also like to second the motion of a vacation from work to do more work. Brilliant! Maybe I can catch up with all the stuff I want to do.

  • June 26, 2007 at 4:18 PM

    For what it’s worth, remember:

    You are following a leader with vision. Just because he hasn’t laid a foot on our soil in a couple thousand years doesn’t change that.

    It’s tough feeling like you’re out in front, blazing the trail. But remember that stronger legs than yours have already set the path.

    Cliche? Probably. But true nevertheless.


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