My Words or God’s

There is this strange dilemma when you are a pastor or other “professional” Christian that comes up in my life quite often. In the ideal case when I am speaking, teaching, or writing I should be letting God speak through me and letting his words come out. It should be what He has to say more than what I have to say.

But everything that God is saying “through me” is coming through the filter of my brain, my mouth, my messed up self. So while it is nice to think that God is speaking many times I mess things up. Most of the time I just make the assumption that the good parts are from God and the messed up parts are from me.

But here is the thing. When it comes to taking credit for or accepting praise for things I find myself torn. There is this Christian humble act (and by act I am not meaning that it isn’t genuine) that says when someone says something about what you do, or when you talk about something you have created you must say something like, “it was all God.” There are many variations, but that is in effect the main thrust of all of them.

While I don’t have a problem with this from a pride standpoint. I do have a problem with it because the older I get and the more that I do this the more that I realize that just because someone liked what I said doesn’t mean that it comes from God. It just seems like arrogance to claim that what you say or do is from God. It is like you are claiming to be writing Bible or something.

I try my best to let everything that I do be “God inspired and not
Shane inspired” but just because that is the case doesn’t mean that it
actually happens. It just seems like audacity to look at a piece of
work that was created by my hand and tell the world, “This was inspired
by God!” I mean what if it is crap? What if it is un-biblical? What if I
was just missing out on what God was saying to me. 

I know many people don’t take it that way, and I don’t have time to have a 20 minute conversation with everyone who says, “nice sermon,” but how I generally feel is that I try my best to say and do things that are in line with the Bible. I have prayed and asked for God’s guidance and have to the best of my ability prepared my heart to be a conduit of God’s words. But the whole God speaking thing, well that is up to God and He doesn’t ask me before He does something. Not only that He doesn’t need me to do something. Not only that I can’t make God do something through a set of rituals as if he were an idol that I made in my basement.

God is God and sometimes I think He speaks through me and sometimes I don’t. And here is the really crazy part. Sometimes I think he is speaking through me even though he isn’t, and sometimes I think I am messing everything up and God is speaking clearly to someone.

I guess in the end I have to just go with the fact that I do what I know I have to do and trust God for the rest. But that is hard to say while someone is walking out the door.   

 

With all of that said, there are some cool times (most notably when I am preaching) when I feel like there is a second voice in my head and all I have to do is speak what that voice is telling me. For me those moments are some of the most pure worship times of my life.

(I think the most pure worship moments I have had in recent memory have come when watching Nathan sleep, but that is a whole other post.) 

3 thoughts on “My Words or God’s

  • January 29, 2008 at 6:51 AM
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    I know about the pure worshipping moment watching your child sleep (and grandkids sleep).

    Shane – I think everyeone struggles with the credit/praise. I talked about it at church with my pastors. With my poems – I know they come from God, and when some says they like them or how talented I am, I have to say I had help with them because I only wrote them down – God gave them to me. Still, I know how it feels. I’m curious if anyone has any other suggestions?

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  • February 20, 2008 at 2:43 PM
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    Grace and Peace to you from our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

    There is a realm of the spiritual that you, I and everyone else who has accepted Jesus Christ has stepped into, yet we work hard to live the Christian life (a spiritual journey) according to our physical limitations. In doing this, as God desires to interact with us – His beloved creation – we try and figure a way to "keep the enemy at bay" – not falling into a prideful state or being "afraid" that others may think we are prideful or maybe too "holy" for our own good. Then the thoughts come, "Well, what if I ‘miss it’? Then God looks like a fool or I will." Shane, God has never looked like a fool.

    To be sure, we will ‘miss it’ at times (which is OK) – the disciples did, and they were corrected and they grew. But when they ‘hit it’ (and they did more and more as they grew), ALL praise and thanksgiving went to Jesus, our beloved Savior and King.

    You being used by God, spoken to by God, directed by God to speak and do is His way of gaining followers – the Great Commission. If you believe you are His, then you MUST – according to the Bible (John 10:27 & John 8:47)- hear His voice.

    Shane, you were created to bring Him glory and honor, do not sell Him short by not telling people He is at work in your life and through your life – display Him, for you are His stage, constructed in His image so the world may see Him and fall in love with Him.

    May the God of all Creation, your Maker and Lover of your soul bless you, encourage you and guide you through this time of learning and understanding.

    Let me encourage you to not let this go. There is an answer to every question we have about this Christian life we are living – and God is "faithful and the rewarder of those who diligently seek Him."

    Blessings and Peace

    Ian

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  • February 20, 2008 at 4:11 PM
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    Thanks for the encouraging words Ian. I hear where you are coming from.

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