Tonight was our M-Fuge share time. (It is a long story why it is so far away from fuge). The praise band played for “big church” which always makes me both excited and a little nervous. There are some people in our church who love it and who crave the time when the youth lead. There are some people who hate it, bring ear plugs, and proceed to complain to everyone before church starts. There are even some who decide to walk out. But like I said, there are some who come alive in worship when we play.
Tonight I convinced Meredith to bring Nathan in at the start of the service. I like for him to get a chance to see his daddy lead from time to time, and I thought that the music would be something that he would like; and if it wasn’t, it would at least be something that was so loud you couldn’t hear him talking.
So we went through “Every Movie I Make” and I am checking him out and he is smiling and sort of dancing along and I think that is pretty cool. Then we move into the song “We Shine” but Steve Fee. This song is by far the most rocking out song we have ever done in Big Church, but it was a major part of our camp experience so I wanted to play it. At camp we learned to raise our fists and pump them in the chorus.
So we are singing along and I look at Nathan and he is looking at me with this big smile on his face and he is pumping his little fist in the air. I have to admit that the room got a little misty and it was hard to find the right notes. I keep thinking of who he will become when he is my age. He is being exposed to so much and I know that his generation will take it and find the next level of interaction with God. I am sure it will be different and I am sure that when I am old I will think it is weird. But for right now my little guy was surrounded by other believers raising his fist with the rest of them. I am not sure if it was worship for him or not, but it sure was for me.