I got a chance to go sit outside and pray and worship again today. October in Alabama is a beautiful time. Here we are with Halloween fast approaching and the leaves are only just now beginning to show small bits of orange around the edges. Of course so many of the trees around here are pines anyway and so you don’t get the dazzling fall display that you do in many places. But October is a good time in Alabama because it is a time when the wind is cool, but the Sun is warm and you can sit and feel the warmth from the sun as the cool breeze keeps you from getting too hot.
As the father of two little boys now I don’t get a whole lot of time to just sit outside and pray and read and connect with God the way that I used to. When I have free time I want to be with them and there isn’t a whole lot of free time to go around anyway. But today, the day was just too perfect and it seemed to call to me, inviting me to come out and play.
I spent a good deal of time today reading through Job as I prepare to tell the story to my students on Wednesday night. It is a fascinating story that teaches us a great deal about God, but for a group of students who are starting to come alive with questions it is also a scary story to teach. In so many ways it raises as many questions as it answers.
Of course that is the beauty of Job. It is an answer to the question. Job asked God why and got an answer. Of course he didn’t get the answer that we have, the answer to the why that we see at the start of the story. But Job got an answer to his question. He asked God why and God answered and His answer was simply: I am God, and you are not.
That is an infuriating answer if you are stuck in the middle of crap and just hear it on the surface, but it is a freeing amazing, perfect answer if you really let it sink in and permeate through you. God is God, I am not, and that means that I don’t have to know all of the why’s of the world. I can simply trust in him.
As someone who is desperate to know everything there is to know in the world that can be hard sometimes, but as someone who learned long ago that I can’t know it all it is good to know I can trust in the one who does.