There is a “rails to trails” bike trail called Tunnel Hill Trail. It gets it name from a tunnel that runs through a bit of a hill along the trail. Once trains ran through the tunnel, but now it is a trail for bikes and hikers and such. As you can see from the picture above it doesn’t really look like much of a tunnel.
The first time my wife and I went to ride through it we were both scoffing at it as we approached. We could see the light at the other end, so really how hard could it be. We had brought flashlights because we had read that it was dark on the inside, but looking at this tunnel and seeing the light at the end we couldn’t imagine we would need them.
Then we started riding through the tunnel.
There is a place in the middle where you can’t see where you are going. Well, let me rephrase that. You can see where you are going, and you can see where you came from, but you can’t see where you are. When you look back you can see the entrance when you look forward you see the light at the exit, but when you look down at front of you it is too dark to see the ground.
Now, maybe if there wasn’t light at the front and the back your eyes could adjust and you could see more, but riding through the tunnel you hit this spot where suddenly you are in darkness. Let me tell you it is takes courage to keep riding when you can’t see what is in front of you.
When I went through the tunnel yesterday with my boys I kept thinking about that small bit of darkness, where you can see in front of you and behind you, but you can’t really figure out where you are right then.
I think I have found myself in those places in life before. I know I have found those places in ministry, where I knew there was hope coming, but right at that moment all I could see around me was darkness and uncertainty. You may have hit places like this too, you have lost your job, gotten sick, been dismissed or disrespected; you have chased after sin thinking it would just be for a moment and found yourself trapped by it. You have stepped away from God just to catch a glimpse of something shiny and now you feel like you can’t find your way back to him again.
Whatever it is you find yourself standing in darkness.
I know that I have felt this way more times than I want to admit, but here is what I had discovered. When you find yourself standing in darkness you have 2 choices. 1) Stay were you are and hope things get better or 2) start walking towards the light.
It takes courage to start walking towards the light. There are lots of hidden dangers in the dark. There may be pain as you walk because you may have gotten way off the path, but you need to keep walking towards the light. Don’t stay in the darkness, don’t stay trapped by your pain, your guilt, or your insecurities. Walk to the light.
God is the light and you can seek him out. Stop doing the things that keep you trapped in darkness and turn your eyes to Him. I have found when I set my eyes towards the light and start walking the darkness is just a moment and within just a few steps I am standing in His light again.