Where Else Can I Go?
Nathan is such an interesting little person. Here is something that I just recently noticed. When he gets upset he wants someone to hug. That is pretty understandable. The funny thing is that when I am the one of upset him and I am the only one in the room he still wants a hug from me. So I tell him that he can’t play with his trains anymore because he has to put on his shoes. He doesn’t listen to me. I take his train away and he starts to cry. Then you can see him thinking and he sort of glances around and then just grabs and hugs me. Then as he cries he says “What’s the matter, Nathan” over and over again. (I tried to get him to to cry, but tell me what is the matter. So now he just repeats his “what’s the matter” mantra).
It is funny, but even when I am the one who upsets him he still loves me and knows that I am the one who can comfort him. There have been a few times in my life when I have felt this same way about God. I have been mad at him, so mad that I just wanted to cry, but then I look around and see that there is nowhere else to turn for real help so I just cling to him. “I don’t get you, God! I don’t understand why you do this! Don’t you see what’s the matter with me!…But you are the only one to whom I can turn. You are the only one who brings comfort and healing so I cling to you and trust that you know more than me.”
On hearing it, many of his disciples said, “This is a hard teaching. Who can accept it?”
Aware that his disciples were grumbling about this, Jesus said to them, “Does this offend you? What if you see the Son of Man ascend to where he was before! The Spirit gives life; the flesh counts for nothing. The words I have spoken to you are spirit and they are life. Yet
there are some of you who do not believe.” For Jesus had known from the
beginning which of them did not believe and who would betray him. He went on to say, “This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled him.”
From this time many of his disciples turned back and no longer followed him.
“You do not want to leave too, do you?” Jesus asked the Twelve.
Simon Peter answered him, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life. We believe and know that you are the Holy One of God.”
–John 6:60-69 NIV (emphasis added)